I wanted to tell you that when I came here, I was on a large ship full of strangers in the middle of the ocean. But over time I realized they were my family, and it had just taken me some time to recognize them.
And then the people I loved held a small ceremony, disowned me, set me on a raft and pushed me away, out to the empty sea, where the dark, hungry waters stretched beyond my comprehension. I wished I'd gone to heaven with the rest of them, and I wished they'd go to hell for leaving me.
I made a horrible mistake in thinking that you were my sister.
But I can't tell you that.
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I'm a little worried by this post.
How much am I supposed to read into it?
Are you leaving Japan on an up note or a down note?
-JCH
PS - I know next year when I leave, the expected intense emotions I will be feeling won't be shared by the vast majority of staff and students. Despite staying 4 years, I'm just the next ALT to come and go.
On a diminished triad. But don't be worried.
PS - Yeah. But I didn't really think it would happen like this. And I didn't expect it to hurt so bad.
What I can't tell you.
I wanted to tell you
when I came here,
A ship large and empty with strangers, including me,
amidst an ocean.
Over time I recognized Family.
I wanted to tell you that when leaving the people of my love,
held a small ceremony,
disowned me,
set me on a raft,
pushed me away,
to a dark and empty sea, stretching beyond comprehension, beyond me,
Beyond Family.
And yet , the full moon reminds me of Japan…
I long to be in heaven with the rest,
I wished they'd go to hell, for I who was left.
I made a horrible mistake in thinking that you were my sister.
But I can't tell you that.
Thank you... mysterious blog post rewriter.
Thank You for allowing me to craft your words into poetic form.
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